they think i dont know a buttload about the gospel.. but i do!!

So today is sunday. well technically its now monday but besides the point. we had a good lesson today about gratitude.. prez monsons talk from conference.. it is an amazing talk and those kind of talks always makes you realize that you need to work on some stuff. we also had a good fireside. that one talked about trials and struggles and weaknesses in life and how we cant do it alone. how we need heavenly fathers help in all we do. we need to lose our pride and stay close to heavenly father and jesus christ. i've realized that i have been struggling with pride lately and i need to start praying more and reading my scriptures more often. i tend to think that i'm too busy with life and have no time for anything. i don't have time for institute with my schedule unfortunately and i seem to kind of be losing sight of things that i need to be doing. there was a study that said the times that you pray and read your scriptures most are those times that you are doing well. the times that you dont is when you are struggling and having hard times. well i concur with that. i tend to appreciate what i have when everything is fine and dandy but i need to appreciate what i have when i'm struggling because that is when i and everyone else in that matter need the gospel, heavenly father, friends, family.. etc.. without being able to attend institute right now i do need that extra spiritual enlightenment. i find myself getting depressed and feel like i have nothing when i am not going the extra mile in the gospel area. i need to refocus in life and realize the strengths and the blessings i have right in front of me. i need to be outgoing and put myself out there to get to know people. it also makes me more not wanting to get out with not feeling apart of the ward or feeling accepted because i dont know anyone. i just gotta be positive and keep looking for the good and staying close to heavenly father. i just kind of feel like i'm missing an opportunity somewhere.. like i need to go somewhere and do something if that makes sense. i dont know though. we will see what i decide to do and when. anyways. just gotta stay positive and be grateful for what i have and recognize the blessings in my life.

Move Children! VOMINOS!

SO i'm sitting here at my rents house on the computer and i'm looking at my friends blog.. well i see that he has music stuff and whatnot on his page and then all of a sudden i see this things moving on the screen and i think.. oh thats weird and kinda cool that he has moving objects on his page.. and then i realize what it really is. in panic i put the computer down as fast and as gently as i could jumping off the couch running over to turn on the light. yes i try to find the little freakn bugger. i cant of course so i lift up the computer and all of a sudden he is on my pillow crawlin around. so i freak out once again throw the pillow to the floor and once again i lose him. i pick up the pillow and he's not on it. i look all over cant find him. all of a sudden i see the S.O.B and i put on my moms shoe and i kill the little crap for brains spider. i wouldn't have been able to sleep if i hadn't found him. I HATE SPIDERS and if i see one it will die.

i'd rather die

so i decided that i would do a movie, song, or just good quote for every post i do as my title. i do that on my facebook status too because i find all people do is just complain about their life or be excited for something and honestly.. the rest of us really don't care. maybe I'm being selfish (or bitter?) in a way but seriously how many times do i need to hear that your husband is the best thing in the world? obviously writing it on facebook you need to remind yourself that you have a great husband instead of knowing it all the time. OR when someone writes something like.. i hate my life or everything is just going wrong. blah blah blah.. you obviously just want attention. i always get SO annoyed by people just barking about how sucky their life is.. or how much better their life is than yours.. or how much money they just made. just keep their crap to themselves. i learn more than i need to on just facebook status'. and to be honest some people in this world aren't as fortunate as others. RIDONCULOUS! i mean if someone has exciting news that they are getting married or having a baby or a miracle in their life happened that's wonderful. I'm just talking about the people who constantly bark or praise themselves on a daily basis.

anyways moving on from my annoyed venting moment.

black friday happened. yesterday i felt like death all day long. today i was pretty dang tired still. trying to catch up on sleep is brutal. I've been spending all night with laura and nigel and the 2 children all day since I've gotten off of work. oh and dave too. well the rents as well. but going on.. so I've been tired which i don't know about you but when i'm tired i either get ornery or emotional. I'll get back to that. i asked dave to pop my back just cause its been hurting so bad the last couple of days (prob from the lack of sleep) but i asked him to do that and so we got on the floor and he keeps telling me to breathe out and i am and by the time he goes at me the blood is all rushing to my head every time. so i eventually because super light headed and then he keeps yelling at me to breathe out and then last spot he hits where it hurts most SO here comes the water works and the emotional breakdown begins. it wasn't a terrible breakdown just an I really don't feel good moment. anyways i sit on the chair and kinda calm down and i fall asleep for like an hour and a half. felt a lot better after that besides a headache but hopefully tomorrow after church i can tackle a nice long nap to be back in business. i have learned from this black Friday experience that i will never work a graveyard shift again unless i only work those shifts. i definitely cant just do a random one in there. totally throws off your whole system.

well laura and nigel are leaving tomorrow. last ones to leave. makes me sad. that little boy of theirs is just so precious and cute. i cant wait to have my own. they will be SO much cuter than anyone elses! ha i kid well not really. anyways donny is just so much fun (even though he's only 7 weeks) but i am just so in love with the little big D.

well as me and skyler always say to each other when we depart.. (sometimes. when we remember) REMEMBER THE ALAMO.. god bless texas.

I believe in a thing called love, just listen to the rythm of my heart

this title unfortunately has nothing to do with a male. it has to do with a new gift i treated myself to for an early christmas gift love me. i unfortunately had to work all during black friday and walmart had a great deal on a 32" inch flat screen tv which i convinced dave to wait in line for me all night. what a sweet spirit that brother is. anyways i got that tv so now i'm excited. johns kids werent really that excited after finding out it wasnt for them but i will give them my old tv so hopefully that'll keep them happy?.. i dunno. thanksgiving was really enjoyable with the fam. my buddy skyler was there due to his far from home situation and work. so i invited him and he basically was one of the fam so it made it fun. we made a bet to see how long it would take jake to vomit due to the fact that he does do some spillage at a lot of family functions but we all lost. we should've taken a bet on how long it would take any of us to puke. whoever would of said mom would've won. poor woman. hopefully she is feeling up to our adult night tonight. all of the older children will be babysitting all of the little kids while us older folks go out to dinner and a movie. should be fun. anyways i was just writing while this lady was in the LBH shop so now i need to go see what the famdam is doin. goody!

I always drink to world peace.

Aloooooha! Well i've been watching my brother John writing his blog every day and been following up on others blogs and since i tend to think that i will write in my journal every day i fail because i seem to always get on the computer or have something better to do. So, since i'm already on the computer why not write and make this sort of a journal for me. OK i just want to be like my brother john. anyways, i dont really know what to write about as of right now because i have no kids, lack of a husband or even boyfriend at that, and basically just spend my time working, but i guess i can just talk about my life and the crazy people i deal with everyday, eh? whateve. Well, tomorrow is thanksgiving and my brother john has set up a turkey bowl for the family and some people in his ward. i want to go but looks like i'll be the only girl. i dont know if i want to really show them all up so i might just stay home and sleep instead.. also considering i have to work a graveyard shift due to black friday which is now starting at midnight this year. its going to be brutal if i wake up early tomorrow and stay awake til 7 am the next morning. speaking of black friday, they have a killer deal on a 32" TV for $198 bucks. I'm possibly making dave stand in line for me but we were trying to figure out if we could just order it online.. however there is limited availability online so i kinda want to be safe than sorry.. but we shall see. Almost all the fam is coming tomorrow except for pete + fam, and mike + liana and kids (dogs). hopefully we will see them here in the near future though. Well this is short but thats ok. i just want to kinda make it simple. done and done. more life stories to come in the future.