they think i dont know a buttload about the gospel.. but i do!!

So today is sunday. well technically its now monday but besides the point. we had a good lesson today about gratitude.. prez monsons talk from conference.. it is an amazing talk and those kind of talks always makes you realize that you need to work on some stuff. we also had a good fireside. that one talked about trials and struggles and weaknesses in life and how we cant do it alone. how we need heavenly fathers help in all we do. we need to lose our pride and stay close to heavenly father and jesus christ. i've realized that i have been struggling with pride lately and i need to start praying more and reading my scriptures more often. i tend to think that i'm too busy with life and have no time for anything. i don't have time for institute with my schedule unfortunately and i seem to kind of be losing sight of things that i need to be doing. there was a study that said the times that you pray and read your scriptures most are those times that you are doing well. the times that you dont is when you are struggling and having hard times. well i concur with that. i tend to appreciate what i have when everything is fine and dandy but i need to appreciate what i have when i'm struggling because that is when i and everyone else in that matter need the gospel, heavenly father, friends, family.. etc.. without being able to attend institute right now i do need that extra spiritual enlightenment. i find myself getting depressed and feel like i have nothing when i am not going the extra mile in the gospel area. i need to refocus in life and realize the strengths and the blessings i have right in front of me. i need to be outgoing and put myself out there to get to know people. it also makes me more not wanting to get out with not feeling apart of the ward or feeling accepted because i dont know anyone. i just gotta be positive and keep looking for the good and staying close to heavenly father. i just kind of feel like i'm missing an opportunity somewhere.. like i need to go somewhere and do something if that makes sense. i dont know though. we will see what i decide to do and when. anyways. just gotta stay positive and be grateful for what i have and recognize the blessings in my life.